Someone Like Me
October 24, 1998
There are many things that make me angry
But underneath it all, there is a reason for me to go on
I could spend the rest of my life alone, I could find
no one who would want to weather out the days with me
Every once in a while I find someone who is worth
the struggle, someone who tells me the truth,
someone who lives by the same rules as I do
In all my life, in all that I’ve seen, I’ve found
one man who lives by those truths, who acts that way
I thought I thought I found another,
and they continually let me down
That’s what society does for you, I suppose
so I found another
I found someone who lived the way I do
He loved the same things and I did and got aggravated at
the same things that I did
He didn’t push it, he knew when to stop
badgering someone, so he like me was used to being alone
When you see a glimmer of that you think he
must be right
There must be someone out there like me
The truth is a powerful tool
If you want to believe
what someone says, well, you just believe it, And
with that you carry all the baggage that you don’t
like thinking that it’s okay, that at least you have
the basics covered
Even if you don’t have the basics covered, Sometimes
the answers aren’t there, sometimes you’re lied to so
you can believe what you want to believe
You know, there are so many times where people have told me
something to make me feel better
It’s strange to have ideas
I think it’s strange
because no one thinks about their ideas or their morals
Am I the only one?
Well maybe
Maybe I’m meant to be alone
I know everyone will tell me
I’m not meant to be alone, that I could have
any one I wanted
But I don’t want everyone
There are very few people that I like
And they are the
ones that hurt me when they let me down
But the thing is, sometimes you see that glimmer of hope,
and before you’re told otherwise, you think that this
is a good move and you found someone you like
If only there was someone out there to inform you
of bad choices you can make, or choices in things that
you haven’t made yet, or maybe if we only had
a little angel telling us, “You know, that wasn’t a good
idea. Get over it.”
Maybe that’s what we need
Sometimes it’s hard for
us to notice all the things that we want to change
and all the things we want to do
and sometimes even when
we have all the right ideas we can still make bad
decisions
Is it possible to make bad decisions?
Yes
I have done it
Usually I don’t talk about my
bad decisions with people, I think of them as
just stepping stones, ways to remember all the
mistakes I made and all the problems I had
Well, now that I think about it, maybe we don’t
need an angel watching over us all the time
Maybe we just have to depend on ourselves
It gets to be a lot of work, doing things for
yourself, but it is possible, if you’re willing to
try
I think you just have to get to a point in your head
where you can’t take any more of something,
and that’s when you just have to cut the ties
Where you have to look at things and think,
yes, you misjudged things, he is not the man
of your dreams, get over it, accept the fact
that you’re going to be alone, and move on
Because I could tell you about the pain that people
have given to me
But some of it might have been my own pain,
because I wanted to believe that everything was right
Over the past few years
I’ve learned that there’s no consolation
in knowing the answer you have is not always the
right answer
So maybe the key is to come up with
a few answers
And don’t ever put all your hopes
into just one answer
Copyright Janet Kuypers.
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