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Us Creative Types Janet Kuypers 5/17/12 I’m angry with you. I know us creative types are self-absorbed, but only if you’re so destitute that even shelters or food banks can’t help should you ever think about it. I mean, I know we’re really all so selfish, and selfishness is a virtue, but I swear to god, this is the wrong kind of selfishness. If you think this will make you happy, this lack of existence, think of how much pain you’ve caused by this one selfish act. Is that how you want to be remembered? I know us creative types are so self-absorbed, so wouldn’t you rather be remembered for your talents, and not have your cut-short creativity be so overshadowed by the pain you’ve caused? ### Because screw you, I know pain, I’ve been where you’ve been, I think I’ve been closer than you, I think I’ve had more reason than you... I don’t know how long I was on that edge, and I struggle to this day with the knowledge that I should have just done it and gotten it over with. Trust me, I know. But all us creative types have these demons haunting us, and it’s supposed to be our creativity that gets us through it all. So yeah, I’m angry with you. Because you said you’re a creative type, so you should have been strong enough. Test your brain and your soul by testing your creativity more. I mean, Kerouac may have tested himself by bathing in bathtubs of liquor, people have tested themselves with anything from drug overdosing to auto-erotic asphyxiation. And yeah, those creative types were selfish, but they aren’t as selfish as you. And I’m angry, because you took the easy way out. And I’m angry, because you caused so much pain in this world with this one selfish act. And I’m angry, because now, what you’ve done, the pain you’ve caused, that’s the only way I am forced to think of you now.

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